|me in 2003|
so today i was looking through old photos of my life, my task was to find one that provoked or represented an amazing day in my life. i wasn't unhappy about this as i just love looking through pictures and the memories they evoke, who doesn't right?! i was drawn to this picture because it really made me smile and represents a really fun time in my life, i won't go as far to call it amazing but i was young, free, and full of enthusiasm for life. seeing this shot made me feel really inspired to think about how life has changed, but instead i started to think all the people in my life. i am so lucky to have amazing friends and family and they support me with all aspects of my life. but i i have a secret: i don't share my blog with them.....
my friends are so important to me but sometimes i wonder if they 'get' my blogging and creative adventures. i mean of course they know i write in journals or scrapbook, i sew, and knit and crochet, they kinda see me with my camera or my phone in my hand all the time but they probably don't realise how deep my geekiness is rooted! I sometimes let it show very casually and they may raise their eyebrows at me but i am the master of disguise! i am of course not at all suggesting that i am not my authentic self around them, far from it, but we all have different sides of our personality on display at different times, we are in essence continually updating the world about ourselves as social networking is the norm now so why would blogging shock them? i guess to the average non blogger this platform of sharing information may seem quite indulgent.
i can remember my first negative comment on my old blog back in 2007. it went along the lines of 'all you talk about is yourself you trumped up &^%$£' ouch! i won't lie, it did hurt. i can remember thinking to myself that essentially is what blogging is all about, shairng stories about your life. it did put me off a little bit but then i thought to myself, hang on this is my life, my blog, and i will say whatever the heck i want, if you don't like it click the close button and don't come back! i am sure we have all encountered negativity, i guess putting yourself out there is making you vulnerable.
i am just not sure i am ready for my friends to read my blog. i am not suggesting that they will be mean or negative but it is scary, what if they find it self indulgent nonsense? or a waste of time? will they care my cat looked cute yesterday or i like pretty dresses? i am not sure...
so i am putting it out there, do you blog privately or do your real life friends read it? have you got some positive stories to tell? i am really interested.
PS thank you for all the awesome comments from my fellow BFS i am slowly getting thorough all the posts/blogs there are a few hundred tho so eeekkk!